yes...I'm finally updating, life's really harsh right now but whatever...
Chapter 27: Unbearable
---Minjung’s POV---
“Are you willing to be the love of my life?”
I remained silent, my fingers still tracing my lips. Jaejoong’s words entered my heart, spreading a strange, warm feeling through out my whole body. I stared into his eager eyes as the warm tingly feeling spread to my fingertips.
But I remained silent. My face was expressionless. It felt like as if time had stopped.
How long I’ve yearned for him to say those words…
Why couldn’t these words be spoken sooner?...
It feels too late now…It is too late now…
If I said yes, the heartbreak would pain him so much when I die; probably no words could describe it…
As these thoughts ran through my head, Jaejoong and I continued to stare into each other’s eyes. I couldn’t read his expression, all those different emotions drawn on his face, it made it so complicated.
I clenched my hands into fists and lowered them down by my side, my fingernails digging into my palm; I inhaled a breath of the cold surrounding air and opened my mouth.
“No…”
As the short and simple word came out of my mouth, my heart felt like it was burning, I felt weak that I said it. I could feel the hot tears in the corner of my eyes, threatening to overflow and come flowing down my cheeks.
I lowered my head, I couldn’t look at him, I couldn’t let him see the tears in my eyes…
Maybe this simple heartbreak would be better than the one in the future if I had said ‘yes’…
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---Jaejoong’s POV---
Maybe I expected too much from her? I didn’t know. I wasn’t sure…I feel so angry in a way that I feel sad…
The word ‘no’…such a simple sound coming from our lips, yet it has this much meaning. When she said that word, it felt like my world was collapsing…it felt like my life was over…
At that moment, I didn’t know what I was feeling. It was like all my emotions were just washing over me. Pain? Anger? Fear? Sorrow? I don’t know. I was confused; I was drowning in a sea of emotions and confusion that Minjung unknowingly created for me…
I took back the small box with the ring in it and placed it in my pocket slowly. My mouth was dry. I started to numb myself, maybe numbing myself would get rid of these uncomfortable feeling.
I looked at her; her head lowered, I couldn’t see her face, but I knew she was crying, because I could hear soft sobs and mumbles coming from her.
“I’m sorry…” I choked out as I stood up, struggling to balance myself from the numbness in my legs. I walked away slowly to my car. I opened the door to the driver’s seat until I realized I left Minjung alone, sitting on the bench. But did she want to see me right now, in this awkward situation?
I really wanted to beat myself up. After the long mental debate I had, I slammed the door shut and jogged back to where she was. I saw the empty bench from a distance, she wasn’t anywhere in sight. I started to panic. I pulled out my cell phone and dialed her number, but no one picked up. I tired again, and this time, it went into her message box.
She probably didn’t want to see me, or talk to me.
Great job, Kim Jaejoong...
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---Minjung’s POV---
After Jaejoong left, I sat there for a moment, just silently crying to myself, wondering where to go next. I didn’t want to go home, I just wanted to go somewhere, somewhere far far away, somewhere where no one could find me.
So I stood up and started walking away from the now lonely bench. I just walked around the streets, without a destination. I was happy that no one I knew suddenly ran up to me, but I looked around me every once in a while incase a friend just saw me. That’s when my phone rang, I just stared at the name on the screen, ignoring the ring tone begging me to answer the call. Then the phone stopped ringing, I switched it off and placed it back in my pocket.
I didn’t know what I wanted right now, I wanted to go shopping. Didn’t every girl do that when they we’re unhappy, for one, I know Sooyun did. I took out my wallet, there wasn’t enough money for shopping, so I looked around for ATM machine, but there wasn’t one around. I felt annoyed now so I just walked to the closest bank. I found an ATM machine, but it was out of service.
At this point, I felt really annoyed and angry, so I just walked up to a counter, asking to withdraw some money in the most polite voice I could speak with. After a while, the lady gave me my money, as I turned around to leave, the doors flung open and two men with ski masks on entered, pointing their gun around the room.
“Give me your money and no one gets hurt!” One of the men shouted as everyone ducked down, curling themselves into a ball, including me.
“Alright, now place all your money in the bag.” The man who spoke before held out a bag in front of a woman probably in her thirties. She emptied her purse into the bag and starting sobbing. The man sighed at her pathetically.
As one by one the people emptied their purses and wallets into the bag the man was carrying, I heard him walk towards me, I saw his feet move towards me. I shook in fear.
Just when he was a few feet away from me, the police arrived outside.
“We have you surrounded! Come out with your hands up now!” I could hear someone scream into a microphone outside. The man holding the bag came up to me and pulled me up by the hair. I screamed, squirming my way out of his grasp.
“Shut up or die.” He raised the gun to my head; I closed my mouth as tears threatened to spill out of my eyes.
He threw the bag at his partner and dragged me outside, his arm around me neck, and a gun pointed to my head.
I could see the flashing red and blue lights of the police cars, policemen aiming their guns at the man.
“Get away from me or she’ll die.” The man shouted, tightening his grip on the gun pointed at my head. The policemen backed away.
Behind the big scene, on the other side of the street, I saw Junsu, yelling at his cell phone.
I didn’t know what I was doing or what I was thinking, but I pushed the man’s arm away and ran towards Junsu with my eyes closed.
And then a sudden gunshot was heard.
